I remember, for years, I believed that being healthy was about being in good shape and having no physical ailment, being in a place where my physical body did not need to see a doctor.
And yet, there was continuous loss and trauma to the person that I was, resulting in internal emptiness and illness, with the longing to find who I really am, regain my worth pick up the ashes and repaint them.

Everyday I would ask myself
"Why does this internal illness keep happening to me? How am I going to get past the pain of loss, the emptiness, the unanswered questions? Is it going to be this way always? How will I find my true self again?”

So grateful that I have learned that I do not have to live like that anymore.

Once I learned how to prioritize my overall wellbeing, including the physical, mental and social wellbeing, I could then define HEALTH for myself. My life started to change for the better and I am never going back to that place of emptiness.

Today I forgive myself for not knowing what I didn’t know until I lived through it. I choose to honour my path, to trust the journey, to learn, to grow, to evolve and become the best version of myself. I can now define the true meaning of living a healthy life

If you feel like I once felt, you're not alone. It gets better. If I can ever support you, I'm a direct message away.